Jalan-jalan Yuk

17 July 2026

ungratefull

Sorry brother..

I couldn't hug you for your loss

I couldn't be there for you

Even barely be here my self too

I lost to this world my friend..

Almost enough to hold my breath

Even to uphold the light and barely embrace deep darkness down there

Sometime, if our path cross again, please forgive me for my ignorance and ungratefull me to have ever met you in my life..

17 October 2020

Yours

Please understand me.

Believe me, that you are my priority.

I'm happy if you are happy.

Don't think that you are a burden for me.

That makes me sad.

So please, just be who you are.

Ask me whatever you want to ask.

I am yours.

05 September 2020

sepi

suwung

16 August 2020

why

Please don't cry

What can I do to ease your heart?

Please don't cry..

29 May 2020

why is it

Is it so wrong to be me?

Why do my words always become a sin?

18 May 2020

Two Lifes

Lelah sangat

Mimpi yang tak pernah menyenangkan

Lebih baik tanpa mimpi

Jika saja aku bisa memilih atau mengendalikan

No one will understand this

The life I had is never been easy

I live here when I wake up, and awaken there when I sleep

Never ever really sleeping

But how can I told you, the life I had?

How can you understand?

If you can't relate that this kind of life is exist in our world

19 March 2020

once

no one told me that the feeling is so miserable..

no one told me that the burden somehow unbearable..

till i just want to give up and raise up the flag..

please.. once.. only this once i want to give up..

i can't bear it anymore..

let me give up

just once

29 January 2020

Hegar

Nak, hari ini ibumu masuk ke ruang operasi untuk melahirkanmu. Ini kali kedua bapak mengantar ibumu. Rasanya jauh lebih menyesakkan dibandingkan dulu saat kelahiran kakakmu.

Semoga kalian berdua selamat dan sehat Nak. Sayangi ibumu kelak ya Nak. Sebagaimana pengorbanannya saat ini demi melahirkanmu ke dunia. 😭

25 September 2019

muspra

you don't need to be understood
so keep it for your self
don't let it out
just stay there
by your self

becaue they won't ever understand you anyway

tulpa

if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
cause your presence still lingers here
and it wont leave me alone

08 September 2019

A Lot

I miss you like.. A LOT!!!!!

#homesick

08 May 2019

Patience

I'm sorry for my weary life. Please be patience for a little while.

06 August 2018

Tetaplah Kau

Tetaplah berjalan menemaniku,
saat aku tidak lagi menjadi diriku.

Tetaplah berjalan bersamaku,
karena aku membutuhkanmu untuk mengingatkanku tentang siapa aku.

Tetaplah disini denganku,
karena engkaulah sesungguhnya realitas duniaku.

20 July 2018

Why is It so Dark?

Why is it so dark?
Could you please turn on the light?

No, you are the one who cut the power line
And there will be no more light for you

Then, i'll just have to open the door, right?
Waiting for the sunrise
Is it?

20 April 2018

I Just

I just want you to know...

But how can you know?

I don't know...

01 December 2017

Hurtfull

It's sad.. really really sad..
To know that you are the one,
The only one..
That caused your children hurt..

27 October 2017

Malu

Rasanya memalukan
Dan bahkan aku rasa jadi malu sendiri kalau nanti bertemu denganmu

18 August 2017

Rahmah

Kau tahu, saat ini aku duduk dan memperhatikanmu tidur.
Mungkin di waktu-waktu seperti inilah, rahmah itu sangat terasa.

Sakinah, mawaddah, wa "rahmah"..

Ya.. "rahmah" yang itu..
Kuharap kau pun juga merasakannya...

Dan bahkan waktu seperti inilah yang menjadi salah satu waktu favorit ketika bersamamu. Karena aku bisa terus menerus melihatmu tanpa membuatmu merasa malu..

13 June 2017

Tulisan ini..

Tulisan ini sebagai pengingat..
Betapa aku bersyukur telah dipertemukan denganmu..

Tulisan ini sebagai pengingat..
Betapa aku bersyukur memilikimu..

Tulisan ini sebagai memoar yang akan terus dan terus kuukir dalam hatiku, menghapuskan kegelapan lain dalam hatiku, dan bersyukur bahwa Allah telah menanamkan cinta dalam hatiku untukmu..

for my beloved wife
uhibbuki fillah

Timika, 19 Ramadhan 1438 H

11 April 2017

Sami'na wa Atho'na

Seberapapun terasa benar nya dirimu, tetaplah.. sami'na wa atho'na..
InsyaAllah, akan menyelamatkanmu apa-apa yang telah menyelamatkan mereka.. para shahabat..